Okay, so now I received my medication and I'm back on two pills a day. And why didn't I just call the doctor, make an appointment, and get enough pills. Why? Why???
I feel fine now. I think, well, I don't really have to take this medication. The weather is warm (except today when it was cooler but I actually liked that and it isn't like it is cold or anything, 60 rather than 75 or 80F), and I am getting stuff done, and Nick is taking me to quilt shops and things are just fine.
But wait, stop. I am taking the medication. I do feel fine. However, last month, when I was running out and taking only one pill a day, I felt like crap. And didn't have the "gumption" or whatever I lack when depressed to call the doctor and say "oh, one pill isn't working and we agreed on two starting on Oct 1 which I did, only now I am running out." No I just try to tough through it and pretend everything is fine.
Okay, I don't like being on the medication. I wouldn't like having a wooden leg either, but if my real leg was missing, I would probably embrace a prosthetic. I don't like wearing glasses, but I insert my contacts daily. So why is this medication so different. I need it. I feel better when I have it. I don't seem to need more and more, just the two pills a day in winter.
So get with the program, Suzie. Get the medication, suck it up and take it, make a doctor appointment to get more as soon as you get home. It's okay, really. Really.
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